It's Been a Long Time

It has been a long time since I last posted on this site. I have been too busy or too lazy, or just not in the mood to write anything here.

I realized that some challenges at this golden age are too distracting, you seem to live like a zombie in a limbo. You just drift day to day, without direction, without motivation, without volition. And there are challenges that seem too overwhelming, you feel so inadequate, so helpless, so fragile. But you have to hang on and face it.

I realized that nothing will come out of drifting day to day or out of procrastinating. I must face the challenges that life brings in day by day. I've lived long enough in this world to know what I must do, I must have the courage and the strength to face whatever comes my way.

I have to find the time to do this more often, rather than just lie around. I wanted to make this blog a reflection of my life, but I haven't done this religiously. I have to stick to my calendar now.

It's really up to me, isn't it??

How do You Say Goodbye?

I thought I have found the missing part of myself
I thought I had a light shining in my life at last
I thought I have found an anchor to keep me steady
I thought I have found happiness and peace
I thought I have found the elusive thing called love
I thought I have found a lifelong friend
I thought I have built a dream
How do you say goodbye?

Home

Home

During those times that I was away from home and traveling to different places, I came to the conclusion that home is not a physical thing.

Home is where you are at peace and live in comfort. Not necessarily the kind of comfort. surrounded with all the materials things in this world, but where you can relax and enjoy your surroundings and your company. It is a place where you can do what you please, and be who you are. It is a place where your love dwells and where you feel you are loved and welcomed. It does not necessarily mean that you are with your family, but you are with the people who appreciate and accept you for what you are, and not for what they want you to be...

In other words, as a romance novel author said, "Home is where the heart is."

New Beginnings

New Beginnings

Birthdays mark new beginnings.

     A new year in our lives;

        New hopes...

           New dreams...

A new person.

     More mature,

          With more wisdom,

               With more experience

                     and with more confidence.

     Tomorrow is a dream that is yet to come

                Yesterday is not forgotten with its lessons

                      Today is a present that is here to be enjoyed!!!

The Flight From Home

October 8, 2009 is a very unforgettable day in my life. It was the day that my world was thrown out of its axis and sent me spinning into an unknown and uncertain world outside my family.

A totally unexpected turn of events which completely disintegrated whatever little belief I had left in the justice system of this country turned my life 360 degrees around.

Sometimes, it is best to get up and run away, especially when the law, however unjustly you feel it was tendered, is after you. You have to hide in order to have a fighting chance.

I left home totally alone, homeless, frightened and unsure of myself, but the thing that kept my spirit alive was the thought that I have to fight for myself, for my dignity and for what is right and just.

My mind was in a turmoil and I did not know where to go with a handful of clothes in a small bag and some borrowed money. Luckily I have just withdrawn some online earnings which are on the way to my bank account. While riding a jeepney on the way to the city, a colleague called me up (thankfully, I did not forget to bring my cell phone with me), and told me to go to a certain place, where we shall meet. What a relief, that I will no longer be alone.

As I boarded a bus, whom should I see on the bus, but the same colleague who called me up. During the nearly 2 hour ride, we talked about what happened, what we are going to do, but we did not know where we are going to stay. Another colleague have made arrangements for us.

We were both floating in a limbo of unreality, angry, disappointed, depressed but determined to make the flight and give ourselves a fighting chance to get justice.

Welcome 2012

The past three years had been very significant in my life for many reasons.

The challenges had almost been unbearable if not for the support provided by family and friends.

The physical, emotional and spiritual hurdles made me buckle under the strains but, it also made me stronger as I realized how much I can take and what I can be.

As I enter a new year in my life, I feel that I am stronger and more capable to take on any challenges that may come this way... ready to face it and successfully conquer the odds.

I am grateful for what I had been through, for the lessons I have learned through the past experiences and for what I have become.

Welcome, 2012, let's rock on!!

A Long Time Since

It has been more than two years since I last made a post here. The succeeding ten months after my last post here were the longest, the darkest times in my life that I will recall later. For the moment I am here again and I will try to find the time to review my experiences, my thoughts and my feelings as I travel this bumpy road of my golden years.

I don't know why I am feeling somewhat lonely tonight. Like I am so alone, with no friends. I can't understand or I can't identify this feeling. I feel like I lost something precious and I want to cry. I don't know exactly why.

I hope nothing bad has happened to any of the persons I love. I hope this is not a bad omen,..